Ashamed of my resentment toward the difficulties of guardianship of my grandson, I asked God for help in changing my heart on the matter. He sent help by reminding me that I had made a choice, that I am not a victim.
It occurred to me that my resentment was of the cost to me physically, emotionally, financially, etc., and it was affecting me spiritually. In effect, I was wanting my sacrifice of obedience to be without cost.
As I was reading 2 Samuel 24:24, (King David said to Araunah who wanted to give him animals to sacrifice free of charge), “I insist on paying you for it. I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing.”
Obedience to the Lord cannot be without cost. This is what He has asked me to do and the cost to me is to His glory.